"I know that I am impatient and do not like to wait. I feel like that is all I have ever done, wait for my life to begin."
Hope, Faith, and Belief – words to live by.
"Those moments when my hope, faith, and belief were tested beyond my limits, is when the strength that I did not know I had, became my saving grace."
100 days of Gratitude and Music – Personal daily challenge
"As human beings we strive to adjust, and grow each day, to survive the environment around us. We tend to forget the biggest change we can make is within ourselves."
Sort of anniversary.
"Every human being has a pivot point in their life where a choice is made and it changes your direction."
Spirituality – Everyday life
"Spirituality is about living beyond these ideas that “things or stuff” in life is important. It is about seeing and being a part of the world around us. Understanding how we are connected to not only one another but to everything around us in the natural world."
Wild blue – Poetry by Suzanne Allen
"Free verse poem about the oceans and our responsibility for keeping it unpolluted."
Observations – Tribal nation’s change to leadership dynamic.
"I will continue to keep watch on things, ask questions, learn more, and push for change from the sidelines."
A woman’s safety, boundaries, and personal space.
"I see in the world today, there are far more worse issues occurring that are related to a woman’s sense of safety, stability, and basic human rights."
Relationships – Online and Real Life
"In the first time in my adult life, I feel like this is how a relationship should be, for me."
Me, myself, and I.
"I know from experience that I come across as aggressive to most people, not just other women, I have been told this by men as well."
Women Empowerment – Not so supportive and the womanhood role
"In a true society that wants growth, everyone should be accepted...We need different ideas and opinions to reach the next level of growth."
Darkness and Light – Poem
10/06/2022 Darkness and Light by Suzanne Allen Morning sunrise an opportunity To forget the day before Find serenity Yesterday is gone Never to be replayed A new dawn Time does not standstill Moves like the ocean Ride the wave, watch the swell The chance again New thoughts or ideas Dreams never end Wonders never cease… Continue reading Darkness and Light – Poem
Scammer, con artists, and fake people
"The scammer and fake people accounts are just a small nuisance to deal with overall. I just find it humorous."
Seasonal Depression – SAD
"I have good days and bad ones but in the end, I still try to be this positive person."
Trust, finally learning how, after 40 years.
"Trust is the one thing that, once it is lost through carelessness of thought or action, can never be fully regained...the people involved will still have some doubts, that is just human nature."
Happiness, Hope, and Habits
"Habits are not easy to develop. It takes time and patience to stick with it but in the end it will be well worth it."
Still of the night by Suzanne Allen
" An evening drive provided inspiration for this writing."
Meditation, mindfulness, and muting the thoughts
"That means this morning’s meditation was just me listening to the calm. The quietness of my thoughts. The inner part of who I am finally finding some peace."
Recovery process
"There is no conceivable way to fathom the pain or suffering a person’s mind puts them through...They cannot see the light of hope that outshines the darkness..."
Sisterly love and sisterhood, a myth.
"I could go on being this complacent person trying to keep peace between us or walk away and be happy for once. I chose happiness."
Writing, thoughts, and anxiety.
"..the last two weeks...I was writing more because of anxiety...of just everyday life and the people in it. The actual purpose of this blog when I started. It came back around full circle."
Therapy groups – Expected behaviors
"I can only hope that they will make the appropriate adjustments to the group and still keep us intact."
Life and Death – What if we have a purpose?
" I still maintain that blind faith, hope, and belief in others in the world...there is truly goodness and positivity left in humanity. We just have to bring it out into the open...into the light. We need to see it more often."
September Blues
"...hopefully, the anxiety and depression will be less this winter."
The Heart’s Song returns by Suzanne Allen
Update to previous The Heart's Song poem written in August of 2018
9/11 – A change to perspective
"Until the day, we actually value the life we have been given, the dark sides of humanity will still prevail."
Change – Someone other than me
"...changing how we define ourselves and deciding to be a different person is the hardest transformation."
Confronting your past, trauma, and your offenders.
"...in order to truly heal from trauma was to forgive those that hurt you...a promising idea but in reality it is more difficult than you can imagine.
Love, communication, and boundaries
"Relationships are messy, two individuals trying to become one. It does not always fit perfectly and there will always be issues."
A work in progress and finding the right people.
"That is what I strive to be, Venus rising from the sea of negativity, bringing forth new life, passion, and most of all, love."
2017 – Pivot point: a year that changed me.
"It did get me thinking about that particular year and what happened back then. If I was to pick important points in time when things changed, that year would be in the top 10."
A mother’s duty
"All I can hope for...is peace of mind. A change to how I feel about them that...the ability to find forgiveness to be completely free of them."
Adulting Anguish – When your kids become adults.
"Reading all of this, one would get the impression that my life so far had been calm, cool, and easy but it was not."
Good day to a bad day – the awful parts.
"It feels harsh to have your grown children speak to you about your failures. It is even harsher knowing that it is true, and you are failing."
Muted Mondays, gratitude, habits, and random musings
"You must have faith in yourself, belief in a greater good, and hope to carry you all the way there."
Ending Toxic Relationships – Even if it is your own parents and siblings
"... the realization that they had slowly been reverting to past behaviors with me was in full view."
Listen to what speaks to our soul every day.
"The music, words, melody, and beat tell the story of who we are."
The beauty of being broken – Kintsugi
"Instead of filling in the lines with something positive...I was trying to turn it back into the original idea...not letting go."
Two years before I got sick
I won’t be throwing caution to the wind again or be so carefree with my health again.
You again by SE Allen
"I can no longer wallow in self-pity, sadness, and regret. I need to be willing to take chances on people."
Good morning, hello world – poem by Suzanne Allen
Good morning, hello world by Suzanne Allen **** Awake once more, before 6 am. Wandering thoughts again . Sleeping earlier in the night. Drifting away, I close my eyes. Dreams of what may be. Mountains, beaches, and beautiful seas. Contentment I find there. No sadness, distress, or despair. Positive thoughts becoming the norm. Mind weathering… Continue reading Good morning, hello world – poem by Suzanne Allen
Insomnia part 2 – It has not gotten better.
"...I am awake because there are so many things that I want to do...I overwhelm myself with these ideas."
Stages of Life – Communication
"I am an outlier on that stage of life expectation graph. That is the problem, who am I now? What is my purpose? Where do I go from here and the next 50 years?"
Lonesome or Lonely?
“Is there a difference between lonely and lonesome? A lonely person desires companionship. A lonesome person is lonely in a profound, long-lasting, philosophical, or especially forlorn way.” – Google search
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