Social Outcast or Toxic people?
“The realization that I do not have any of those kinds of memories because I have never had any true friends was at the forefront…”
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Perceptions
“The perception…was somewhat altered when we moved my daughter to another state.”
Read moreKnowing – poem by SE Allen
I know where you are, I was there too. No amount of “things”, take away the blue. Talking helps but only if you hear. It’s not the thoughts, the actions you fear. The road will be dark and long. You will struggle to find the dawn. Know this to be true. You will feel lost, emotionally unglued. One day you
Read moreIndigenous Peoples Day – October 11th, 2021
12:49 pm It was just a normal Friday morning. Drinking coffee, reading through programming articles, and preparing to do homework assignments. An alert popped up on my phone from one of the Instagram accounts I follow. I opened the app and then I saw a post about the President of the United States had just made a proclamation. Unsure whether
Read moreI love my job because…
“The human beings we contributed to make the world a better place for others.”
Read moreThe Shade
“It had been years since she had been to the family’s home place…”
Read moreLong Winter
“It was only the first weeks into winter. Oklahoma winters could be unpredictable…”
Read moreThe Storm by Suzanne Allen
“She was grateful. They survived the storm.”
Read moreNew writing challenges and website
“Who knows, maybe I have found something that will continue to keep that creative spark present in my life.”
Read moreEarly morning
Early morning by Suzanne Allen We brought you here 6 years ago.I was nervous to let you grow. You’ve had adventure and lots of fun.Under the hot Texas sun. College gave you perspective and taught you well.You grew tall as a person but my baby girl still. I am so proud of the person you became.Now it’s time to bring
Read moreThe phone call
“It has been over two weeks since I got a phone call that helped shift my focus back to where I was before January.”
Read more1,505
“The truth will always see the light.”
Read moreVows are just words
“Vows are just words but the actions it presents will either make them stronger or weakens them.”
Read moreMay the 4th Be with You – A Journey of 40 years
**Repost – Originally posted May 4, 2017. Happy May the 4th. Today is May 4th and someone somewhere wisely proclaimed this as the day to celebrate Star Wars and it has been that way since 2011 but being a longstanding Star Wars fan my celebration of these movies started almost 40 years ago. It was a warm summer evening in
Read morePatience is a Virtue
“It is hope, faith, and belief that has kept me going. “
Read moreThe beginning of this journey: A 50-year walk, so far.
“Your happiness is not dictated by others. It self-defined…It took 50 years to realize that, .. I do not plan on spending the next chapter…doing the same.”
Read more3 1/2 Weeks
“As I sit here writing after a brief time away, I await my single cup of coffee to be ready and I contemplate my life, at this moment.”
Read moreYou choose: vocal participant or sideline spectator?
“The difference is that I was also told to not expect to be treated fairly and that I will have to work harder because my skin color was not the right one. All the rhetoric will never make us equal, only action will.”
Read moreLearning something new for the New Year.
“I was done with having jobs that were less than fulfilling. I was done with working for others that did not pay me for my skills, experiences, and knowledge. “
Read moreWeek 1 – Completion
” An artist cannot shut out those ideas that swirl around in their thoughts, it will always be there.”
Read moreMorning pages
“Once a habit is gained then so much more can come out of it. Habits make things go smoother and help to achieve goals.”
Read morePrologue: Pandemic and “The Artist Way”
“…creatively I have been stuck for quite a while.”
Read moreAmerica in Chaos
“The past two days in our country has shown the world how truly lost we are as a nation.”
Read more2021 – Self-Preservation and Clutter
“The things that made me happy growing up where reading, writing, and being creative.”
Read moreFamily
January 3, 2021 Just a quick post. I created this short video compilation of my daughter’s recent visit. We realized it had been a year since I saw her in person, the Christmas before in 2019. As they grow up and build their own lives the opportunity to visit in person will become more and more spaced out. This was
Read moreWintry weather
Inspired by this morning’s wintry weather. It’s been quite a while since we had snow. Have a wonderful day. Suzanne
Read moreThe new normal.
“People keep saying that they want things to go back to “Normal”. What is that and why do they think it was so great?”
Read moreRomantic Relationships – Are they really worth it?
“…That is life and how it is supposed to be, a great learning experience. We either change or we stand still. I choose to keep moving.”
Read moreObservations of people – Viewpoint
“I understand that people don’t necessarily move away from their hometowns and live a life somewhere else…”
Read moreIt’s not over…til it’s over
11/4/2020 As the saying goes “It’s not over until the lady sings.” She’s still warming up and about to start. Woke up this morning and the ballots are still being counted and the whole world is watching. Just seeing the numbers of those that voted again for our current chaotic leader was a let down. So disappointed in my state,
Read moreCrossing Paths: people we meet
“The only thing that changes whether the people we meet become more involved into our life is dependent on the way we carry ourselves and how we are perceived by others. Our expectations change.”
Read moreGreen Branch: strengths and weaknesses
“…knowing who you are and what you are capable of is a sign of strength…must have a weakness to become stronger…know what the bottom looks like to keep rising back up after each fall until you get to the point where you no longer fall.”
Read moreRacism and Reparations
“…We are all citizens of this land, but we will never be truly equal until we demand it and support one another in obtaining it.”
Read moreBurden by Suzanne Allen
Felt positive, sure, and moving.Put on the mask of happiness.Always a burden. Opened heart bared not hardened.Thought people actually cared.Always a burden. Tears come easy and often.The quiet of being alone is deafening.Always a burden. Soul is tired of hurting.Just wanted a life to call my own.Always a burden. This wasn’t eden the garden.It was a facade full of loopholes.Always
Read moreAutumn depression
“Fall time is usually the worst time of year for my depression. It starts in September and lasts until spring…”
Read moreLife of an Empty Nester
“This first year as a new empty nester wasn’t perfect and things didn’t go the way I expected but neither did the marriage or the life I had up until this point. “
Read moreBroken Vows
Vows – “a solemn promise, pledge, or personal commitment”
Read moreRemembering 9/11/2001
September 11, 2020 It was an ordinary day for me. I got up, took my kids to school and day care. My husband went off to work. I went off to my college classes for that day. I was just finishing up my college algebra class that morning and heading to my macroeconomics class. As I walked through the hallway
Read more17 years, 28 months, 22 days
“I have…begun to realize that men don’t necessarily know what they want either despite this patriarchal society we live in…They… have developed the rules we live by but also fail by those same rules…always …there is a balance between male and female that is a part of nature. We can’t get away from it and why would we? We are meant to balance one another not fight against it…”
Read moreTruth or Date – Dating communication
“…I told him how I felt and then I logged off my account to regroup and regain my composure. I went for a long walk and then spent that day mulling things over asking why it made me feel so bad?”
Read moreMonday thoughts
I’ve been contemplating a lot lately and considering what I want as far as a relationship goes. I realized that all the previous ones involved me giving all my time and energy into trying to make it work. It should have never been that way. Going forward the person that wants my attention will have to put forth more effort
Read moreThe power of the written word: love.
“I questioned that God’s judgment on me was because I was born not from love, so I cannot be loved in return…because I was not born from love that I would never know what it is like to be loved.”
Read moreSmall milestones
August 16, 2020 Wow, a small milestone. 🤔😮💁🏽♀️🙂I have had this blog for many years and it has helped me so much. The ability to verbalize and communicate what I’m feeling is cathartic in this safe space. 200 posts over a 5 year period is approximately 3 posts a month on average. I was shooting for at minimum 1 post
Read moreChance Encounters
“If I was only on that pathway for a brief walk with him then I will have to be happy with that…you can’t force a relationship…can’t make people stay with you. Life doesn’t work that way…find that happiness whenever or wherever you can.”
Read moreLooking for love: In all the wrong places.
“It’s about looking for something that doesn’t exist or is not present just anywhere. If you keep searching for it that way you’ll never truly find it.”
Read moreSearching for happiness; evaluating myself.
“..I have trouble setting boundaries with people which causes me to get hurt…the depression and anxiety …keeps replaying over and over again.”
Read moreKiller of enthusiasm: Loneliness
“There are approximately 7.8 billion people in the world and one cannot let a handful that you meet in your lifetime make you feel alone.”
Read moreDisappointment – Lesson learned
“Honesty, integrity, and being an open communicator are paramount to any successful relationship.”
Read moreLoss
July 5, 2020 Loss. 😔*Just got word of a very young relatives passing.*A parent should never have to endure the unimaginable pain of that loss. There isn’t even a word to describe it.*Things are not guaranteed in life.*We go through each day in a hurry when we should enjoy each moment.*Waking each morning to a new day and a new
Read moreIndependence Day 2020
July 4th 2020 I woke up this morning with thoughts about what does The Declaration of Independence mean to me? Being a retired veteran who also happens to be a person of color. I am an indigenous person of the United States. Today being the Fourth of July and the celebration of this country’s Declaration of Independence. I have all
Read moreReality. It is, what it is.
Woke up with my arm outside of the blanket this morning. 🛏 It felt cold, heavy, and empty. The heaviness and cold is the arm itself. It has been this way since September 2019. The empty feeling, is related to the tremors that started August 2020 post surgery. The only indicator that it will occur at some point during the
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