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“The only thing that changes whether the people we meet become more involved into our life is dependent on the way we carry ourselves and how we are perceived by others. Our expectations change.”

“…knowing who you are and what you are capable of is a sign of strength…must have a weakness to become stronger…know what the bottom looks like to keep rising back up after each fall until you get to the point where you no longer fall.”

“…We are all citizens of this land, but we will never be truly equal until we demand it and support one another in obtaining it.”

Felt positive, sure, and moving.Put on the mask of happiness.Always a burden. Opened heart bared not hardened.Thought people actually cared.Always a burden. Tears come easy and often.The quiet of being alone is deafening.Always a burden. Soul is tired of hurting.Just wanted a life to call my own.Always a burden. This wasn’t eden the garden.It was a facade full of loopholes.Always

“Fall time is usually the worst time of year for my depression. It starts in September and lasts until spring…”

“This first year as a new empty nester wasn’t perfect and things didn’t go the way I expected but neither did the marriage or the life I had up until this point. “

September 11, 2020 It was an ordinary day for me. I got up, took my kids to school and day care. My husband went off to work. I went off to my college classes for that day. I was just finishing up my college algebra class that morning and heading to my macroeconomics class. As I walked through the hallway

“I have…begun to realize that men don’t necessarily know what they want either despite this patriarchal society we live in…They… have developed the rules we live by but also fail by those same rules…always …there is a balance between male and female that is a part of nature. We can’t get away from it and why would we? We are meant to balance one another not fight against it…”

“…I told him how I felt and then I logged off my account to regroup and regain my composure. I went for a long walk and then spent that day mulling things over asking why it made me feel so bad?”

“I questioned that God’s judgment on me was because I was born not from love, so I cannot be loved in return…because I was not born from love that I would never know what it is like to be loved.”

“If I was only on that pathway for a brief walk with him then I will have to be happy with that…you can’t force a relationship…can’t make people stay with you. Life doesn’t work that way…find that happiness whenever or wherever you can.”

“It’s about looking for something that doesn’t exist or is not present just anywhere. If you keep searching for it that way you’ll never truly find it.”

“..I have trouble setting boundaries with people which causes me to get hurt…the depression and anxiety …keeps replaying over and over again.”

“Honesty, integrity, and being an open communicator are paramount to any successful relationship.”

July 4th 2020 I woke up this morning with thoughts about what does The Declaration of Independence mean to me? Being a retired veteran who also happens to be a person of color. I am an indigenous person of the United States. Today being the Fourth of July and the celebration of this country’s Declaration of Independence. I have all

“A true leader knows how to talk to the people they want to lead…”

“Anxiety and depression play a big part of the insomnia that plagues me…”

Major Changes – Working through it. It has been a challenging couple of days. I had a major surgery performed this past Thursday. The first ever, surgery I have ever had, and hopefully the last. So today, with the help of technology through voice dictation, I just wanted to write a few of my thoughts. In the coming weeks it