So today is my oldest child’s birthday. I couldn’t sleep last night because of all the thoughts running through my mind. Thinking about him and worrying, as a mom always does, whether he is happy or not was one of them.
My son also has depression and anxiety issues coupled with highly active thoughts and high intelligence sometimes becomes overwhelming for him. The only difference between him and myself is the fact that he recognized it earlier than I did so he has found meditation, dietary changes and exercise to be the best way to work through them. He has a much more positive outlook toward life than I ever did at his age. He is helping me to acclimate to that way of living and thinking as well. I don’t know what I would do without him.
Thoughts about him, my other children and our future turned into thoughts about their father. It’s the same pattern of thoughts that I always go through that sometimes spirals out of control.
This time I took a step back and started finding other ways to redirect the thoughts toward something more positive as the morning has moved on.
One way is finding things that made me laugh or just smile. It truly is the best medicine for your soul. As a kid, I would be the one laughing the loudest at the TV sitcoms we would watch and it helped so much growing up.
Today, I watched music videos of some of my favorite singers, bands and artists my favorite being a compilation of Madonna’s “Vogue” from all her live shows.
I then watched clips from television favorites such as Ellen Degeneres, Jimmy Fallon, James Corden, Craig Ferguson and The Graham Norton Show. The lip sync battles are some of my favorites. This led to watching more clips from the show Lip Sync Battle.
It has always intrigued me that some actors, actresses, singers and artists would sometimes say in their interviews that they are actually really shy when it comes to talking to people. Despite this shyness they’ve developed a way of putting themselves out there to entertain us and make it look so effortless. If only you could bottle that up to make it available to anyone that wanted it.
I have begun to realize that it is all a state of mind.
That if you let the negative thoughts take over then your outlook will be bleak and you will be stuck in one place.
If you let in positive thoughts it makes you feel like anything is possible. You can dream as big as you want when your heart, passion and desires become the driver.
These thoughts paired with motivation is how action takes place. So if you are not truly motivated then you will be at a standstill. Finding that one thing or even several to keep the momentum going is always the best course of action.
My son would be so proud at this moment because I’m going to quote something from physics. 🙂
I see it as “Newton’s First Law…that an object will remain at rest or in uniform motion in a straight line unless acted upon by an external force…a statement about inertia that objects will remain in their state of motion unless a force acts to change the motion.” Now granted we are always in a state of motion, just the act of going to sleep and waking up is a part of that but how we progress the rest of the day is up to us. Our thoughts and actions are the force to move us along.
So now that wave of anxiety and depression has finally subsided coupled with my own ability to think things through and react differently to how I was feeling, my day will now go one and I will continue moving toward my goals.
Life is temporary, we all know that, so we have to choose whether we just exist or whether we actually live. Some of us our fortunate enough to be able to make that decision.
I’m finally choosing to actually live the life I was given. The past cannot be changed, the future is always uncertain without hope but living in the present and looking positively forward is the best choice to make.
So this is for you, one of the funniest comedians that I loved growing up, I hope it makes you smile.
Thank you for stopping by.
Have a great rest of the week!