August 27, 2017 It was another day of waking up and feeling overwhelming loneliness as I laid there in the darkness of the morning dawn. It has been happening quite often over the last 6 months or so. As I laid there and the inevitable self-doubt started creeping into my thoughts I suddenly smelled cigarette smoke. That has happened quite
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So as mentioned in a previous post, I was working on a poem for an Instagram weekly challenge when I realized that I used a quote instead of a poem. I chose one of my favorite quotes from the book “Dolores Claiborne” by my favorite author, Stephen King. Here is the poem created from the quote. Homage to Strong Women
Read moreAugust 21, 2017 So I am still participating in weekly writing challenges on Instagram. This week’s challenge was to write a poem using the words of another poem at the beginning of each sentence. I originally picked out a quote from a book but realized before submitting it that it had to be poem instead. So this is my entry.
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August 13, 2017 I debated over writing this for several days. I finally decided to go ahead and put it out there. I grew up in Oklahoma almost the center of what we call in the U.S. the Bible belt. It’s an imaginary line of states that start in Ohio Valley and extends to the South West. A lot of
Read moreStill participating in writing challenges on Instagram. This week’s challenge was writing a letter. It was free verse or poetry. This is my entry. Dear Universe, My life was unimaginable, I felt invisible. I was broken in two. You saw what I went through. Suffering at the hands of another. Lovers, strangers, father, sisters, and mother Pain, abuse, tears and
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August 11, 2017 Sitting among those that also walk the earth, the sky bright blue, fluffy white clouds floating by and birds chirping in the wind. I sat there and pondered our existence among each other as listened to the quiet conversations, felt the anxiousness and saw the look of sadness in some of their eyes. We are all the
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August 7th, 2017 I woke up this morning feeling panicked. I didn’t know what time it was, I had forgotten to reset my clock so it was just flashing 12:00. My phone is not working properly so it wasn’t charging overnight and was dead. After finally rigging it up with rubber bands to hold it in place it started barely
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August 3, 2017 During the scrolling through different social media apps and while waiting for the counseling session this past week, it occurred, that the waiting was starting to cause the already anxiety ridden thoughts to compound. The noise levels of those in the waiting area seemed to be amplified and the heart rate was starting to go up. It
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August 1, 2017 I was sitting here eating my lunch and had posted a pic to Instagram about it when the thoughts of how ironic that moment was came into my thoughts. Anxiety and depression are my constant companion. I’ve written numerous blog posts about it or in relation to how it affects not only myself but the relationships I
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July 31, 2017 I saw you the other day. You’ve been in my thoughts ever since. It’s been over a year since that last email you sent. I used to be angry and hurt that I didn’t get to say goodbye in person but I knew it was for the best. If I had been there that day you came
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