July 31, 2017
I saw you the other day. You’ve been in my thoughts ever since.
It’s been over a year since that last email you sent.
I used to be angry and hurt that I didn’t get to say goodbye in person but I knew it was for the best.
If I had been there that day you came by I wouldn’t have been able to let you go.
As I watched you walk by, heading to your car all I could think about was you.
I used to love the way your eyes would light up when you saw me and the crooked smile that told me you were up to no good.
There are still times when I can hear the words you used to whisper to me. It makes my heart hurt.
We were old friends once. You had my back and I had yours. What happened to that?
I used to look forward to our long conversations about work, sports, and whatever the topic of the day was.
You were my friend. Sometimes my only friend. I miss that person.
You were always there to boost me up, hold me accountable and to lean on in my time of need. I was always there for you too. I hope you still remember that part.
I saw you the other day and you looked worn down and tired. I had never seen you that way before.
I’m sorry for everything that I put you through. If I could take it all back I would. Just so I would never have to see you the way I saw you at that moment.
You are still a good man just with a misguided heart.
I still want nothing but the best for you and I always will.
I’m sorry we can no longer be in each other’s lives. I wish it had been different.
I know you never want to see me again and that’s okay. I’m still learning how to let go of the pain of losing you.
You need to move on and find someone who makes you happy. Whoever that may be will be lucky to have you in her life. Maybe she will feel the same way when you smile and whisper at her.
I’m finally letting you go.