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36 Inches of space

36 Inches of space by Suzanne Allen

November 3, 2019

It’s the beginning of a new month. It’s been a few months since I last wrote anything significant about my life.

The picture attached to this article is the 36 inches of space allocated to my personal belongings while I stay with my mother and her husband. I am not longer in a home of my own, I am technically homeless.

Back in June and July I knew that the extra funds being received by my youngest son would end. I was trying to prepare for that and had been telling the landlord for over a year that I was planning on moving after he graduated from high school. Then August rolls around and we moved him off to his college on the other side of the country. I also did not pay the rent for the purpose of using it to get him settled in.

I knew that making that decision would have its consequences, but I took it even further, I quit my job at the end of August as well due to Some interpersonal issues that were going on. Others may seem it as a set of unfortunate circumstance; homeless and unemployed. I think it was the best thing to happen to me in quite a while.

It forced me to finally move out of the house I regretted living in for almost 3 years. It also forced me to stand on my own two feet and also stand up to the same type of people that always bullied me at my workplaces. Both have been very freeing for me mentally and emotionally.

I was afraid that I would slip into a deep depression again, but I haven’t despite the inconvenience. I know what I want and how I want to spend my hard-earned income.

It’s been 2 months since I took those steps to change and I now have 2 jobs, a full-time and a part-time one. I don’t have any days off during the week, but it really doesn’t feel cumbersome or draining just a little tiring at times. It has caused me to look at how I spend my actual free time and how to make the most of it.

Recently, I was also able to get into a housing program for assistance. I found a property manager willing to work with me, but it required a little more deposit due to the eviction at the end of September. So, I have a house picked out, paid a little toward the deposit, and have the paperwork pending approval. Things are looking brighter. I’m earning two paychecks and have managed to get some of the finances back on track.

Now its just a waiting game until I have all of the deposit paid and I can move. I can start over again with a better mindset and a better game plan in place for the financial aspect.

That 36 inches of space may not seem like a lot, but it is having the biggest impact on my future self.

Thank you so much for stopping by.

Take care, best wishes always, and be safe out there.

Peace, love, happiness, and good vibes to you always.