**Part 2 of the series on this self-improvement course
Morning pages
12/23/20
Tomorrow will be 45 days of straight writing.
That is the longest that I have gone in a daily writing habit.
If I could just develop that into a daily reading habit, then it would be great. I am still working on that.
A part of the process that I am trying to achieve relates to personal development.
The only way to grow as individual is through personal development. Learning something new every day. That is something that I encourage people to do preferably daily. Turn that knowledge gain into a habit.
Once a habit is gained then so much more can come out of it. Habits make things go smoother and help to achieve goals.
The morning pages aspect of this program was a challenge in the beginning. To begin each day the same way is not normally a routine for myself but something that I was willing to try.
The morning pages are just to get all those thoughts out that may bog you down during the day. That mind clutter that fills up your thoughts and causes one to waste time. In my case it is also mixed up with the depression and anxiety that is always there.
I am happy that I was able to stick it out this long. It has made the beginning of my day go easier.
I noticed that by combining the morning writing with my Happy Light and a lit candle it has made mornings a more pleasant experience. I have not had that feeling of dread that I usually came with working full time.
I would wake up with a headache, stomachache, and stress on regular basis before. If you are unhappy, mentally, then it will make everything seem like a difficult task. That is my own personal insight.
I have not worked in over 7 months now due to the shoulder surgery and recovery process. There was no longer that morning dread of getting ready for work, but it was replaced with the anxiety of not having a job. The stress of not being financially stable being the main cause of the anxiety.
Recently that was rectified through approval of my VA disability claim and now I have funds to support my bills and basics.
The timing of starting this program was right and I look forward to learning more. Regaining that creative spirit is at the top my list along with other things. If the creativity is not there, for me anyway, it will affect everything that I do.
Trying to regain that desire is still there but somewhat muddled by the injury. I tire easily and sometimes do not sleep well so it feels overwhelming trying to start new projects.
I was able to focus on one project and completed it yesterday. A scrapbook/photo album. It required multiple steps to completion. I am pleased with the outcome and look forward to giving it as a Christmas gift.
The next thing that I am looking forward to is a visit from my eldest daughter. I haven’t seen in her in year, that is way too long.
As I continue on in this journey of self-improvement, development, and awareness, I will also document the things I discover about myself and the process.
Thank you so much for stopping by.
Have an awesome week!
Take care and be safe out there.
Peace, love, happiness, and good vibes, always!
Suzanne
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