"...I am awake because there are so many things that I want to do...I overwhelm myself with these ideas."
"I am an outlier on that stage of life expectation graph. That is the problem, who am I now? What is my purpose? Where do I go from here and the next 50 years?"
“Is there a difference between lonely and lonesome? A lonely person desires companionship. A lonesome person is lonely in a profound, long-lasting, philosophical, or especially forlorn way.” – Google search