Random Musings, Well being

Life and Death – What if we have a purpose?

Life and Death – What if we have a purpose?

9/13/2022

I was thinking about the story of a person that I have never actually met.

I found this person by chance on social media and went down that rabbit hole of information ending up at his Facebook page. That’s when I found out some interesting things. He turned out to be an actor who just authored a book about his life experience and dream to become a citizen of Brazil.

Then I found a story he posted about the fact that he, as a kid, had survived a devastating earthquake. He was at his school when it happened and got buried under the rubble. It was an earthquake that happened in 1988. When I read some more on that event it was quite devastating. The articles I read said over 60,000 people died and over 130,000 were injured. The country had been hit by two within minutes of each other.

That bit of information has stayed with me several days now.

I was thinking about the fact that I was a junior in high school at that time. That was well before cable television, computers, and even the internet for me.

I was still a kid, disinterested in watching the nightly news and never reading newspapers.

I had never even heard of this earthquake before until I read about it. That the world we live in, now, everything is known within a few minutes which was a wow moment for me.

As I was reflecting on the extraordinary life of this person, who I had never heard of until about four days ago, when thoughts of life and death were becoming questions in my mind.

Here was this individual who survived something as a kid, and went on to live this extraordinary life experience most people never even fathom. It was quite awe inspiring.

Instead of death meeting him at such an early age, the universe intervened. It was not his time. In my mind and in my beliefs, that just means he was always meant for something greater.

That is how I always feel when I hear about people who survived something that should have been catastrophic to their life. A thing that they survived either by sheer will power, or faith. That the universe said it was not their time.

That is the one thing that we have no control over whatsoever: death.

The thought of our own death provides us with several options to living.

1. It is going to keep us pushing forward towards something, seeking out knowledge, or continuing to grow as a person. This will continue until we are satisfied that we have gained all that we wanted to know.

2. Worry about it constantly and live a life that is safely tied up in this neat little box where you never leave its boundaries. We will stay content to be in a constant state, that our beliefs, are all that we know.

3. The last option is to just live and not think about it. To live in a sort of denial, that only becomes a reality when something is happening to us. Then either we will develop blind faith or we give in.

The thought of death has always been with me due to the trauma I endured growing up. The soul in me was just not strong and was constantly struggling. I just wanted to go away and never come back for the longest time. I kept fighting it though. I kept fighting with those thoughts. I kept struggling and clawing my way out of all the bullshit in my life.

Why? Why would I just keep fighting? The answer is I don’t know. It was always this gnawing thought at the back of my mind that kept telling me to keep moving and to not stop. This thought just kept saying it would get better and I believed it.

Then there is the other side of that coin where people just give up on life.

They do not fight for what they want and have unhappy lives. Then they lay blame on the world around them for their misfortunes.

They do not realize that it is all a matter of choice. A choice in your mind and in your heart as well.

The conscience knows what we need to do but we refuse to listen to it. It is easier to just listen to the clutter and noise in our life.

We do not take the time to quiet our minds and listen to what the universe is trying to tell us.

That’s why I am here, right now, because I have never stopped no matter how many times I got knocked down and stomped on. I jump right back up and keep going. I feel like there is something out there waiting for me to finally get there but I just don’t know what it is, yet.

I had to develop that blind faith in the unknown. It was an exceptionally long hard road to follow, having faith, hope, and belief that there is good still out there. That the good people that are meant to be in my life and part of my future are still waiting for me to get there. That one day all the anxiety, depressed moods, and negative thinking will just not exist or serve a purpose anymore.

I feel, today, that I am finally getting to that point. Things just don’t faze me like they used to. I have learned to either accept it or find that silver lining because if I look hard enough, I can find it.

I still get anxious and worried about things but most of the time if the other person or even my inner self, just talks me through it, then I am fine.

Today, I am putting my hope, faith, and belief into another online person. Trying extremely hard to not judge things too harshly. Making sure to keep that negativity at bay and do the best that I can. Trying to not be overwhelmed and just give up like I did so many times before. Becoming the best version of me that I can.

It is not easy, I struggle sometimes, but this person has been extremely understanding and supportive. I appreciate that the most about him. He is not just giving up on me, like so many others did before, online and in real life.

I still maintain that blind faith, hope, and belief in others in the world. That there is truly goodness and positivity left in humanity. We just have to bring it out into the open and into the light. We need to see it more often.

That means that I choose option number one. To keep pushing, learning, and growing until I am satisfied that I have learned everything that I needed to know. That one day when the universe says it is my time to go, I will have no regrets and hopefully, I leave that legacy behind for others to follow.

Thank you so much for stopping by.

Have a wonderful week!

Peace, love, happiness, and good vibes, always.

Suzanne