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Happiness, Hope, and Habits

Happiness, Hope, and Habits


I previously challenged myself to writing daily gratitude’s for one hundred days in which I coincidently hit on September 20th, 2017, exactly 5 years and two days ago. I posted a poem to commemorate it in the blog article “100 days of Gratitude”.

I started this challenge again with myself the last two months and today is my 50th day of writing gratitude’s. I am at the halfway point.

In the attempt from before, I made a wall of different colored sticky notes with three things that I was grateful for every day. This time I am posting my daily gratitude’s on my Instagram page with a picture of the sunrise, sunset, or just a random landscape picture I have taken over the years.

September is truly a month about change.

This time, I also incorporated a posting that I call “Song to Start the Day” along with the morning writings. I made a playlist of one hundred songs and put it on shuffle to randomly pick the song of the morning. I do a screenshot of the song and try to tag it with the music if it is available on Instagram. The plan is when the last song is played then I will make the playlist public on Spotify.

These simple things are becoming a part of my morning routine. Along with fixing my bed, meditating, getting dressed, and washing my face. It is about developing better morning habits.

Why is this important? Would such minor changes make a difference?

They absolutely do. It is about how you mentally start your day and whether you are putting yourself into the right mindset in the mornings.

I used to have really unhealthy habits that kept me feeling down or just out right depressed every morning. It got to the point that I was filled with a sense of dread every time I opened my eyes. I lost a lot of jobs by letting those negative thoughts interfere with just being able to get out of bed in the morning.

I used to just lay there letting those negative thoughts about myself or the people in my life turn over and over in my mind. I would replay what was said, what actions took place, or the hurt by what occurred. Most of the time I would be crying while I was in the shower, washing my face, or just trying to get dressed. I was in major self-defeat mode. I was getting nowhere and staying stuck in that mental state. It was not healthy and not good for my overall well-being.

Then one day, I was scrolling through social media and I saw a post by an account that I followed. The person was talking about finding even the smallest thing to be grateful for, every day. In that moment it just clicked and I remembered the assignment from a previous human resource management course that I took.

We were tasked with writing daily gratitude’s every day for the semester. It was to be kept in a journal then turned in for a grade. I remembered how it made things not seem so bad even though I was in the middle of a divorce and having my life upside down. It was something to look forward to every morning.

I decided to try it again while also sharing it with others on my social media accounts. It became a daily posting and the goal was to do it consecutively for one hundred days. It really did change my perspective on how I was viewing things in my life. I was taking for granted the most basic things that I had that others in the world did not. It made my problems seem so small. It was a very humbling experience.

This time, I am challenging myself again to get out of this rut that I am in, mentally. I started noticing that my thoughts were becoming very cluttered with noise. I was spending way too much time just doing nothing. I would spend hours watching television, movies, or scrolling through social media.

Valuable time being wasted and it was making me feel like I had no purpose. Once I realized this, I decided to change my daily habits.

The first thing I started was cutting the television and movies to only on the weekend. It actually has been better than that because I have hardly watched any television in a month. I have watched a 30 minute episode of a show, here or there. I did watch a couple of movies but ended up breaking them into two different viewings, it was too distracting and I was losing interest. One movie, I never finished.

The other issue with the noise that was filling my thoughts is the anxiety that it was producing. I was feeling overwhelmed by my wandering thoughts and it caused a lot of “What if” scenarios. It was not helpful or productive.

These changes are not going to make me suddenly become this completely new person. It is making me feel happier. I do not feel so overwhelmed.

This happiness is leading to more creative thoughts and has resulted in more art being created as well as more writing.

The hope right now is to just to keep maintaining these new habits to make the mental aspect of my well-being stronger, more resilient, and more decisive. The ability to be more in tune with my personality instead of constantly fighting against it.

The next step will be focusing on my overall physical health but it will take time.

Habits are not easy to develop. It takes time and patience to stick with it but in the end it will be well worth it.

Thank you so much for stopping by.

Have a wonderful week!

Peace, love, happiness, and good vibes, always.